What is wrong with me?

What a question :D

No-one is perfect, but some seem to be more at fault, or even just not 'satisfied' with themselves. They lack self-confidence and are victim to self-loathing nd the tendency to blame themselves for things that are entirally not their fault. This tends to happen to me. Luck it would seem, i hav a short supply of. But i believe in Karma.

I find it hard to explain it. So i found this.

'Karma will exist in you by cause and effect. As long as this Karma exists a person will never be free from the control of Karma and its influence.
Karma is not a fate, we all act with free will and create his own destiny. According to the Hinduism, if we sow good in our lives we will reap good; if we sow evil we will reap evil.
Karma refers to the totality of our actions in our present and previous lives and these actions effectivley determine our future.
The conquest of karma relies on intelligent action and dispassionate reaction.

Karma is considered entirely impersonal and should not be seen as a punishment or retribution, but an extended expression of natural acts.
The effects experienced, can to be mitigated by actions and are not necessarily fateful, but are influenced by positive action.

For every action you take as we have seen there will be a reaction in the future. This is the law of Karma.
Whatever activity we do, good or bad, will bring us good or bad reactions. For every action you take, you will face a reaction in the future, in your next incarnation.
If you perform good actions, you will face good reactions in the future; if you perform bad actions they will see you face bad actions.

This may come in many different forms:
If you take good actions you may benefit in terms of, good health, wealth, personal fulfillment etc.
If you take bad actions, you will face bad reactions in the future. The bad reactions may come in the form of ill health, poverty. Personal unfullfilement etc
When we suffer in our present life, we are facing the consequences of the bad reactions to our bad actions we took in the past.
Our actions include everything we do in our lives, including our physical deeds, words and thoughts. There will be a reaction to all of these, that is the law of Karma.'

That is what i believe.

I think that im not a very nice person sometimes, which leads to some of the 'unlucky' things that happen to me. In the past, some of the choices i have made were wrong. I've hurt people and now recently, i have discovered how that feels.

On a lighter note, i will update you on my continiuing, scary obsession with the twilight series nd robert pattison :D have read breaking dawn for the third time and new moon for the fourth. watched twilight for the second time with my friend nikki. i need to get it on dvd, or perhaps i will just take hers and keep it. yes, that souns like a gd idea.

xoxo

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