Food for thought.

Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?

But what if the cow doesnt want to sell up?

I am hungry now.

Guv'

These days you cannot say what you want. You'll be judged and/or it wont make a differance.

So what's the point?

I wanna blog bout things, but people would find it supicious.

Rolling down hill very funny, moi et ma petit Nikki :)

http://www.facebook.com/amyhardwick?v=wall&story_fbid=389390934489#!/video/video.php?v=1374793404701&subj=596594489

OWLS, everyone is fond of owls.

You only live once.

It seems recklessness is a much attractive thing. Carelessness haha. I need to start living. Recklessness more fun perhaps?

I'm quite happy, and leave me be, because im scared the mood wont last, cos things always get ruined for me. i'm not gna ruin this myself, but im scared someone else will.

Got a biscuit thrown at me in frenhc, v.random.A custard cream? a digestive?
Both....?

I feel like an outsider.

Have you ever thought 'fuck this', every single day....

I swear that recently i've just been letting everyone down, im not doing the right things or saying the right things. It's just, i dont know what is right. I dont know what im doing anymore, who i am. Im not being cheesy, i honestly dont know. I dont know why i cry when i cry, and i dont know what i want. It's lyk limbo of being sure and knowing. Am i distant? i wouldnt know, cos i dont know anything. but im sure distant from myself. Swear im pushing people away, thats wot it feels lyk, tho im not, and more people dislike i think. Im lyk an outsider. I dont belong anywhere atm.

Owls.... hehe sperm whales.....

Raw egg is gross.

My look is a cross between a five year old boy and a scarecrow.

Learning about sustainability in science, asked Sir if he'd been to prison, he said no but he may be soon. So i said "Sir, where is the nearest prison?"

Also in science, i laughed at the desk vandalism, 'i hate emos'-> 'i hate emos'->
'cheesy' so i added -> 'i like turtles', then drew a turtle.

So i passed my one star shooting for cadets. First time on the weapon, and i got 65. Thats good, im so used to failing at stuff.

Ask me no questions, and i will tell you no lies.

I wish i could change things, because i have hurt so many people. Wouldnt it be easier just to get rid of me guys?

'Kiss me quicky, i'm losing, can we live forever?' Aiden....

Mum gives me advice on being a slag, well not being one, 'you don't want to be the villiage bicycle' what mum? 'everybody gets a ride...' ha bloody ha

You know you're cool when you run round Hobbycraft pretending to be french, filling up you pull-along trolley thing with stuff you hope mum will buy. Trick her by putting packets of mini egss over the stuff you hoarded. I needed the wacky string, ready to sew baby turtle and otter.... and the sponges shaped like planes and ducks. I love hoobycraft.

(HOOBY!)

Coke is just disgusting. Especially when it dribbles out ur nose.... NOT A SNEEZE

Good weekend, apart from stupid bloody bossy siblings. Today was extraa awesome. Good park times, introduced Florence to the i have never game, i got coke everywhere, made my arm sticky. Things were pretty kinky with Nikki, but they usually are. Im sorry for putting your blackberry down my jeggings Jack :D So funny when i threw Nikki's shoe nd it hit her in face..... woops..... Evil cat was all friendly and pretty. Kinky bench, but didnt do my dare and make the sexy noises. DAn with his awesome that's what she said joke, well, i actually missed it but oh well... Cameron raped me again and again LOL.

Then that Tiny TEmpa song came on nd reminded of gd time with Nikki, in Alive.

Im a terribly stupid person, i need to sort myself out. Im so fucked. And scared.

Stalkers and pudding times

DAmn you pudding. Just cos i dont have a microwave, doesn't mean you can destroy my life with wafts of caramelness. STUPID CADBURYS CARAMEL PUDDING. The oven doesn't work for it, it won't go hot inside, and sister won't let me eat it because i'll get food poisoning, but do i even care?! NO!!! So i ahd a few sneaky mouthfulls, but it tasted wrong, like the wrongness when you lick guinea pigs, oh memories.... *shudders* So yeah, i'm mad, i get into these moods where i just wanna throw plates and bowls and listen to the crockery smash. OH baby.... yeeee.....

How do u know your blog is successful? You get a stalker, it's my 2nd stalker in life, and this time she's pretty, she says she's not. BUT MEGHAM YOOOO ARE!!!! I might leave some biscuits for her in the bushes outside my house, though lil midget cat, my baby, will prob nibble on them and fattie shmee will lick em.

Here's our heartwarming heart to heart (you can never have too many hearts in a sentance)
Megan
omg im not a stalker btw but your blog is the funniest thing ive ever read!

Me
thanks :)
im happy now
i wud appreciate it if u were a stalker, cos ur pretty nd my last one was kinda ugly lol
Megan
im not pretty, see your funny all the time!

Me
well.....
YES U ARE

Megan
no im not buh ill be your stalker

Me
yay, a pretty stalker

Megan
ugly stalker **

Me
NO!

Megan
so what do i do as yuor stalker??

Me
stalk me!
yay, i must do another blog.....
i usuually do bout 1 or 3 a day
not 3, two silly me

Megan
3 is a magic number amy !!

Me
only for sexual things.... ;)

Megan
ahaa ... indeed

Me
so.... goats.....

egan
hmm yeahh i errr was thiinking about goats this morning. time travelling is a big issue...

Me
u were in bed wiv a goat? wow :D

Megan
well what can i say.

Me
how do u know it wasnt me dressed as a goat?

Megan
ahh well i wouldnt apart from it was actually president obama dressed as a goat

Me
hes awesome
he rides dragons

Megan
and milk floats

Me
we used to be best mates, then he got mad wiv me

Megan
why?

Me
becuase i slept wiv his wife

Megan
ahhh i had that problem with tony blair :/

Me
not gordon brown tho, she is FUGLY


Megan
she reallyy is. i mean heard of a nose job?!

'You got pregnant for funny? Dina, if he's funny laugh!'

Okay, well, im blogging on Cameron's lap, can't say it's a first.

My two life dreams are to skinny dip and watch all FRiends series in a row, non stop basically.

Good day with my buddies nd fellow biscuiteers xD James Bond is like the Doctor. Cos the faces like, change.

We were wondering how birds do it.
Male birds have two testes that produce sperm, and most female birds usually have only one ovary that produces eggs. A bird's testes or ovary greatly increase in size during the breeding season. Their small size during the rest of the year lightens the load for flight. The cloaca is the outlet for eggs or sperm.

Im kinda frustrated, nothing really happened. Hardly a change. I suppose i shall give it time.

Yet, i dont mind that much.

Im not scared am i..... no......

Not again....

Awh ffs, seriusly, just shhoot me.

Racing the OAPS

Walking this morning, old granny further up on oopsite side of the road, decided to see if i cud beat her to top of road. i think she knew i was racing her. i won!

And truth be told i miss you, but truth be told IM LYING

Well, i never thought i could be so bold. But i said it, i wasnt kidding and there is no going back now.

How to keep yourself oocupied in maths, how to pass the time, have fantasies. LOL

So it's the election soon, i've been looking at the manifestos, well when i say looking, i mean, trying to find one that isnt short. So instead i have a joke. I do have one thing to say about the parties, Nick Clegg has tiny eyes, eyes that have no emotion. Is he a robot?

The seven dwarfs always left to go work in the mine early each morning. As always, Snow White stayed home doing her domestic chores.
As lunchtime approached, she would prepare their lunch and carry it to the mine.
One day as she arrived at the mine with lunch, she saw that there had been a terrible cave-in.
Tearfully, and fearing the worst, Snow White
began calling out, hoping against hope that the dwarfs had
somehow survived.
‘Hello…Hello!’ she shouted. ‘Can anyone hear me? Hello!’
For a long while, there was no answer. Losing
hope, Snow White again shouted, ‘Hello! Is
anyone down there?’
Just as she was about to give up all hope, she
heard a faint voice from deep within the mine, singing;
‘Vote for GORDON BROWN! Vote for GORDON BROWN!’
Snow White fell to her knees, praying, ‘Oh,
thank you, God! At least Dopey is still alive….!’

The title of this blog is relevant. Been singing that song. Cos finally i am over him. I mean, u will always feel abit weird if you see an ex with someone else, but apart from that im good. I got tested today, im not even attracted to him anymore, no more than i am any other guy.

I think im a bad person, a very bad one in fact.

listen up guys.

look, if you like a girl, tell her. dont be a coward. these days you are so cowardly, never making the first move. have u ever heard of being a gentleman, or whatever its called. if you want me, kiss me. Girls love spontaneoity

Grow some balls, excuse my pun.

ffs, i am so pissed at everything.

I grew up on the street, not the hood, the sesame street, JD, SCRUBS

I can't believe i got sent out in french, i didnt do anything lol. 'Cept admitting it was okay to throw things. It is though.... as long as it aint like knives of summat.

My dress fell down in the co-op, dont think anyone noticed, though if someone check the camera, the one aimed at the ice cream... do they even have cams in the co-op?

CURSE you monsieur apps!

I am a bad girl, Nikki should spank me, or Flo-monster... LOL

STICKY, THINGY, STEVIE nd FLO-MONSTER.... three biscuiteers!

Sometimes i look at myself and think 'what a freak'

Science. Stevie anf Flo-Monster, back row troublemakers, catapulting marshmellows at Cameron's innocent back. Wearing lil hats.

Me nd Noel fielding shall have tea pot ninja children.

Rachel lent me Vampire diaries book, i've read it already. Less than a day. Took me bout five hours (approx).

Just asked mum if i am allowed say 'twat', she said no.....

I'm allowed to say ninja? WTH mother?!

Mark was in trouble, tried to bite him.

I like vampires :L

AND I CAN LOOK AFTER MYSELF

OCD Obsessive Cullen Disorder (:

I think i aged ten years in Art today, i shouted out that Josh had an stupid name and a crap personality. It was just a joke, but the subsitute teacher decided to give me a ten minute lecture on seeing the best in people, while i pretended to be interested. By the end i had given up on life and felt so tired, practically drained of energy. I'm not living this down for a while.

Watching veronica mars.

I always have food on myself, doritos in cleavage, custard cream on face, ice cream on elbow. Food fights by myself? Possible.

I should probably have tea nd get ready, yeah... but where's my pizza?
There really shud be more to life than pizza, but there aint... ;) LOL

No artifical lighting.

‘Close your eyes, the rain won’t wash away.’

The dangers of lamp-posts, a dedication.
1. They are very tall, and tall things are dangerous, like trees and skyscrapers.
2. They have been pissed on by god-knows-what (dinosaurs?!) which makes them good for bacteria and germs, but bad for you.
3. If they don’t work at night you can’t see where you are going, and that in itself is bad.
4. If you walk into it, either blind, drunk, or just plain stupid, it will hurt.
5. It is well known that lamp-posts are extremely evil and are plotting world domination, as are beavers and Simon Cowell (those two are working together, against the owls)- for all those Weebl fans (you tube it)

Don’t have regrets, they are pointless, you can’t change what happened yesterday or earlier, or the days before now. You might as well move on, and learn from your mistakes. Because what other choice do you have? Except to not learn from mistakes, and then keep on making them.

Emotional pain turns physical when bad, and also in a good way too, kind of. If you miss someone so badly, it feels like you’ve got a giant hole punch in your chest, which only they can fill. The irony is, that when you need someone the most, they are never there.

Sometimes you don’t know what to believe, people can say things to make you feel better, I.e. they lie. Have you noticed how good humans are at lying? How two-faced they can be, humans are complex, both good ways and bad.

Love. When you’re not with the person, you think about them. And when you are with them, you look at them and can’t believe how lucky you are.
I used to know that, now I only partly do, it’s crazy, how you think you know someone, and in the end you don’t. Though when I say the end, I cannot mean it, because, it is not the end, as much as I, and other people I know, have been through, this is just the beginning, the start. Because on the grand scale of things, 15 years (give or take) isn’t a long time at all. Tiny. Like the Shakespeare quote ‘All the world’s a stage, and the men and women merely players’.

I’m pretty much an easy target I suppose at the moment, Emotionally fragile, and slowly fixing oneself. I need to be stronger. I wonder what would what happen if people fought for others, I wouldn’t know because people never do in real life, only in great love stories. Which are just fiction. Just like happy endings, because you think you’ve got one, then something happens and it all gets messed up. Unlike in books, because those stories don’t go on once you have closed it at the end. I can refer to the Twilight quote ‘I love happy endings, they are so rare’.

“I’ve always been afraid of losing love I guess I’ve lost, well if that’s love it comes at much too high a cost!”
It’s amazing how you can relate to songs lyrics.

I love Top Gun ‘Take me to bed or leave me forever’ STUD ;)

I was walking along yesterday, feeling kind of badass, thinking, life ain’t hard, so why am I making it so? Thinking that I can handle anything, full of ‘bravado’, swaggering along. It must have been the combination of me looking quite awesome at the time and the blaring of MCR in my ears, funny how nothing ever lasts…. The looks and the badassness…..

If you had told me a year ago, what was going to happen and how I felt now, I wouldn’t believe you. You see, it only takes a year basically, to lose your innocent and faith in life and become pessimistic. I wouldn’t know myself now, a year ago, I would laugh.

Yano what, why do I have to belong to a group, or a genre or something?! Can I just be me? I mean, I’m not that bad. Am I?

Look who’s procrastinating and being illogical again……

Smartass for hire.

My life is full of 'what if's, luckily i can usually ignore my random spontaneous urges to do things and see what happens, a small of the self control that i mostly lack, because in my urges i just wanna screw the consequences.

If you are a guy and you love me lol, www.twilightguy.com

Welcome to reinvention.

Sometimes, for survival, you just have to step and look after yourself, it's called self-preservation. You may think i'm really defencive, but i'm actually just trying to keep myself in one piece.
I've dragged myself through hell and back, the hell of my mind. I would say i am a survivor, so now i am going to live for the day.

Do-Wah-Doo- Kate Nash

Oh, listening to OneRepublic, they are quite good. I like All the right moves.
I havent done anything of interest today, 'cept have a bath and laugh at my sister's anger at Spyro. Yesterday was gd, have now seen my sexy Jess two days in a row :)
I cannot please everyone, and i wish i could, but with life comes fucking pain. And if i'm brutally honest, i'm basically just passing the time, waiting.

'What if I’m not a superhero? What if I’m the bad guy?'

I'm feeling so TwiHard, thanks to Wendy's party, it has renewed my love for all things Twilight. It was an awesome party, The food and the quotes were very clever, plus the food did look and taste yummily. The bottles were awesome, type A and all that. And the fountion ('when we taste human blood, a sort of frenzy begins') event hough it obviously attacked me, i mean, it fell on me. Of course, i got the golden onion :D After Jess shoved my head into the apple bobbing ad got lots of water up my nose, if you're going to be technical, you could say she got me wet.
Wendy looked amazing and very much the part of Bella, and the personality too, not wanting to be the centre of attention, which she was kind of forced into by yours truly, as Alice :D Sometimes my randomness and confidence comes in handy, especially getting the attention of a room of people whom have no idea who you are. Then the whole room doing an awesome version of the harry potter pals song, i was dumbledore obv, because he gets naked....
I would like to thank Wendy for a awesome party (: and Hannah and Meg for their brilliance, you know you guys love me now!
I would also like to apoligise to Jess, for the constant rapings, and remind Grace and Rosie that the house is still up for sale, so collect your telescopes!
To everyone there, hope you had fun, i sure did.

'About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was part of him — and I didn’t know how potent that part might be — that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.'

Yesterday made me realise how much i miss my old friends (old as in school nd living not actually lots of wrinkly people :S) We need to see each other often, Ellen needs my kinkiness :D well, who doesnt?

This next bit is the most important!
On the 9th of July, at Roadmender, this amazing singer called Charlee Drew will be performing, youtube him http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIsRoL7Dpm8&feature=related
My friend Ellen is selling the tickets,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIsRoL7Dpm8&feature=related
They are five pounds, and for more info or to buy tickets, here's her facebook http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/ellen.reynolds1?ref=ts (hope u dont mind ellen)
If you're not sure, here's my ultimate selling point, I'LL BE THERE XD

Bollocks (:

Ice cream for breakfast :D i feel random.

Just got told off my mum for showing mark a vid a race car hitting a rabbit lol. I did slow mo running up stairs lyk jd nd turk in scrubs. i wish my life was lyk scrubs.

I cannot work ze bloodeee computer Dx

Yesterday was gd, can't remember what happened, 'cept for orgasms over cookie dough ice cream nd doing quite well on target practice on cod lol. then i went off cos apparently friendly fire is badddd, just cos i shot sum shepard guy enit.

I haz sum carrot, tis orange. We r bffs.

i am a hypocrite becoz i hav played wow nd it is not tat bad, i am called swarlly or summat. i am a mage :S nd the moths were evil.... tho if u play it for ages it can be very tiresome for ur companions.

PINEAPPLES. and pears...

'Carpe diem'

MOTHERCHUCKERS

Cupcakes taste like violence

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxbsbymhdDQ (look out for the duck wearing a turban nd the women scrubbing the floor)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wePMYM4av6Q&feature=related (love this song)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0CHAZJr3OE (love this program)

I has hello kitty lollipop :D

Hello kitty is taking over, i know this because in town today, there was so much stuff in the shops, beautties..... claires..... etc etc. i have one thing to say about this. YAY.

I have deduced summat that will cause great controversity. Are english guys less decent than non english ones? I have two examples of guys that are great and decent, and they are not english, or at least, only small part english. I know that some people, guys, english ones, will want to oopose, and they are welcome to, it's just a theory. I mean go ahead Will, you know you're outraged.

You can't teach an old dog new tricks.

I felt too kwl earlier, so badass. Played tennis with fishnet gloves. I am bad in some ways. I crave affection, guys and all that crap, it's like an addiction,a drug, i just can't resist them and what they represent. Though today i was feeling kinda powerful, felt in control, but i know it's completely the oopsite. I am not in control.

Itch you can't scatch

I'm confused, i don't even know what i want anymore, all these frustrations and confusions, i'm like a bomb, just waiting to go off.

My hair. Remember how much i loved my new style,well, it's gone horrible and thick again this morning. Apparently i wasnt supposed to blow dry it.

I haven't eaten properly today, didn't eat until like 3 o'clock, after i had bathed and gone shop etc. I've eaten small bowl of coco pops and ice cream nd yorkshire pud.

Alive was certainly a new experience last night. Fun, but the oopsite of mollifying. The girls, mostly, had the shortest skirts, bodycon basically, and it was unnatural. I felt so curvy and big and old, with all the young, pretty girls with their perfectly coloured (i'm too pale) twig legs. It was incredible, how they kept their skirts/dresses from hiding up. I guess they couldn't bend over. At one point, when sitting down, i saw a girl's crack, not pleasant at all.

Clubbing, or whatever it's called, is fun though. Better if you're in a group, so there are more people you know. It's so loud, when you leave the room, to go outside or something, you can't hear properly. Like when you're in the bath and your ears are underwater and you speak. At Alive, at one point, my nose was vibrating, very random. Nikii liked the bubbles, she got a kaliedascope thrown at her.
You get so sweaty, and it's so crowded, all the other sweaty people accidently rubbing up against you, pretty gross.

I've realised why i like reading so much. Reading means i escape into someone else's 'life', their world, their problems, their 'happy endings'.

Kris Allen- Live like we're dying. MCR-Famous last words.

Don't listen to what Nikki says, i DO have eyebrows.
That is all.

You only live once.

Listen, you only live once, if you're unselfish then you are not living. Sometimes you have to thin of yourself, but there are limits. You can't just not live, you have to grab life and just mad. You have to live.

Motherchucker

i love gossip girl

that is all.

Bored nd home alone

I hv had no brekky just a lil bit of choc nd sip of water, new diet perhaps?
Though it's my last egg... :(

Honest Section:
Honestly, what color is your underwear → black with pink bits, hello kitty
Honestly, whats on your mind → nm tbh, the song im listening to keeps joining 'jerk me jerk me off' so thats stuck in my mind
Honestly, what are you doing right now → facebooking nd blogging
Honestly, who is your best friend → if i had to pick one top person, Nikki, but i haz others
Honestly, have you done something bad today → hell yes
Honestly, do you watch Disney channel → sometimes
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now → anyone in wales
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time → my family nd bitches
Honestly, do you bite your nails → yeah
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment → yes :L
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now → perhaps
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like → nah, too much energy
Honestly, does anyone like you → hope so :D

Can Section:
Can you blow? Bubbles... yeah.... ;)
Can you do a cart wheel? never have been able to nd never will
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth → nope
Can you touch your toes → obv
Can you whistle → nopppe
Can you wiggle your ears → no :(
Can you wiggle your nose → kinda, just tried it
Can you roll your tongue → dnt think so
Can you make a clover with your tongue → fuck no...

Anger Section:
What do you do when you're mad → cry usually
What’s the worst thing you've done when you were mad → made my head make a strange cracking noise wen i whacked it angrily against a wall
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad → yes....
Do you swear when you're mad → usually

Tear Section:
Ever really cried your heart out → yeah
Ever cried yourself to sleep → quite a few times
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder → most of my friends
Ever cried over the same sex → they died nd i cried, so yeah basically.
Do you cry when you get an injury → depends how bad
Do certain songs make you cry → if they r sad ones, im a wimp lol
Do certain movies make you cry → titanic, forrest gump (forrest gump the most, if u wannna make me cry, make me watch it) etc...

Happy Section:
Are you usually a happy person → with my friends nd atm, yeah
What makes you the happiest →
Does being with your friends make you happy → oh yes
Do you believe in yourself → atm, yes, feel very powerful
Do you wish you were happier → if certain ppl came down from the wales i wud be
Is being happy overrated → hell no
Can music make you happy →inspiring songs ttly

Love Section:
How many times have you had your heart broken → once
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them → yeh
Has anyone besides your friends/family ever said ‘I love you’ to you → yeah, im well loved lol

Hate Section:
Do you actually hate anyone → yes
Ever made a hit list → nope ;)
Have you ever been on a hit list → probably
Are you a mean bully → im usually the victim, but not recently lol
Do you hate George Bush → yeh, he stole my lawnmower

Self-Esteem Section:
Is your self-esteem extremely low → yeah, but im currently building it up atm, slowly
Are you good looking → passable nd bit more wen my hair is gd
Do you wish you could be someone else → no, cos then certain ppl may nnot lyk me, nd i know i hav lots of faults, but thats who i am. that is a wasteful wish

Physical Section:
What is your current hair color → brunette
Current piercings → one per ear
Have any tattoos → getting one asap
Straight hair or curly → wavy nd frizzy
What shirt are you wearing → pink hello kitty holding an apple
trousers → h&m jeggings, dark
Shoes → amazing socks
Necklace → nope

Have You Ever:
Hugged someone → sooo many times, if u know me u know the answer to this
Been on the phone until the sun came up → yeah, i spose
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants → i tiny bit lol
Laughed so hard you cried → quite a lot
Got in a fight with someone → yeah :D

Last..
Person you talked to in person → cant honestly remember
Person you talked to online → jamie
Person you talked to on the phone → rob
Person you hugged → steven
Last person you hung out with → steven nd tom
Last thing someone said to you → go away fattie (sister)
Last time you slept in all morning → thursday
Last thing you said out loud → arrrgh it melts... (i talk to myself sometimes... a lot)

Random Section..
Do you get along with your parents → not really, i spose
Do you have mental breakdowns → oh yes lmao

Current Section:
Current mood → wishful....
Current music → true colours, glee stuff, 3o seconds to mars nd mcr
Current hair style → bit messy but awesome
Current Crush → crush is an immature word, nd it is more than a crush
Current thing I ought to be doing → tidying nd being useful
Current windows open → facebook, msn nd spotify
Current desktop picture → david tenant (mother's)
Current book → just finished reading one, so none atm

Did Section:
Did you ever get into a fist fight in school → one time
Did you ever run away from home → tried to wen i was lyk, 9, me nd my m8s had it all planned, two of us with rucksacks, just walked off
Did you ever want to be a doctor → nope, too much effort
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter → nah, im hot enuf ;)

Do Section:
Do you know how to swim → yeah
Do you like roller coasters → totally
Do you own a bike → yeah, dnt use it lyk, ever
Do you think you could eat the stuff on those reality shows → no wya, i am scared of insects

Does Section:
Does hair loss run in your family at all → nope, my hair is too thick
Does your car get good gas mileage → my car.... oh yes.....
Does your family have family picnics → sometimes wen it's sunny, i just go for the food

Have Section:
Have you ever been on a plane → yeah, to spain nd back
Have you ever been asked out by someone → oh i gotta think bout this, i think sooo.... LOL
Have you ever painted your nails → yeah, i myt do inabit actually

What Section:
What are you listening to → the prayer by bloc party
What is the weather outside → sunny :D yay
What radio station do you listen to → radio one
What was the last restaurant you ate at → mcdonalds!
What was the last thing you had to drink → crusha strawberry milkshake
What was the last movie you watched → flushed away

Who Section:
Who is your newest friend you added to Facebook → tom
Who was the last person you IM’ed → jamie
Who was the last person you took pictures of → me lol wearing steven's hat, a trophy...

Whatcha Say- Jason Derulo

Wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 2]
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 3]
Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right

[Hook]
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

I feel alive :D

Wind in my awesome hair, having a laugh, feeling loved. Good times wiv Luke, Steven nd Tom. Eloi obv hates me lol.
That is all.

.Howard: Who cuts people's hair in the middle of the night? Vince: I do. They call me the midnight barber

It's a new day, and im fucking bored, waiting for ppl to hopefully come out, and if they dnt, well, i hav my hair, and that is enuf awesomeness to satisfy me.
Sometime i say anyways to much.
I thought i was something, but if i think about it, and judging from last night, im probably not what i think am. What do i know anyway?
I need to start controlling myself and thinking, otherwise people cud get hurt, but yano, i shud be able to hav some moments of selfishness.....? :L
I don't understand, the ppl i need to speak to are not online, ggrrr, Barrowman *shakes fist* (Never mind the buzzcocks fans would understand that)

When i die, i swear to leave all my stuff to my P.I.C (Role Model fans would understand this) Nikki Swain :D i said to her 'i might die' and the lovely thing replied 'oh, can i hav ur stuff?' she will miss me.

If it werent for certain fitties, i wud say who needs guys, COS I GOT HAIR!!!

I. Love. My. Hair. I. Want. To. Touch. It. All. Time.

finally my hair look gd, tho wen i wash it, god know wot it will look lyk. If its good im dying my hair for Abbi.

I dnt want to blog.

My day has been brill, with knobs on top.

Liam is awesome.... he wishes :P

Gawd, im hyper. Choking *blushes* damn you with ur rough accent nd hunky manliness :D and that 100000000000 pack, GRRR ;) 7.9 LOL

<3 Love ya!

the hit nd run involving the pheasant and the welly.

I now believe in happy endings, my pessismism has come to an abrupt end :D Thanks to one person... :)

I love scrubs, KnifeWrench....For Kids!! I love the Janitor <3

Today i woke up, forgot Cameron, then we did stuff nd went shop. Walked round ressie abit, nearly swallowing flies in the rain. Hurt my ankle :L rode a bike that matched my trainers. The ducks followed us, attacked my phone. We danced to Lady Gaga for them.

THE MOST HUMAN AMONG US.... IS A BEAR xD

Looking forward to tommorrow nd there are people on tv.

Hair cut tommorrow....

Bold font is cameron.... bold = sexy ofc

hgfdjjuuujtfcbbdsshjhjk jhhtg hgf gtteww gfrdsc hhyhjh uhygbhjhy... ygtggff!tytyhyhgh !!!!!!!
funny eh?

thanks cameron :D you really have a way wiv words

ikr

bite me.

just did.

oh i know :L
THE DARKNESS INSIDE U CAN MAKE U FEEL SO SMALL PENIS

so very very small...

but i see your....

penis getting hard.

as ya do

some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them

Today is tuesday.
Home alone, kinda lonely. Zippy isnt v.talkative.
Eating chocolate nd watching scrubs <3
I really wanna watch band of brothers, does any1 hv it?
OMGS
there's a spider on my skl shirt, feel sick now.
now go eat some cookie dough nd put slippers on, slippers make me feel safer.
i gotta be sneaky tho....

the trick to warming a spoon up for ice cream, put it in ur cleavage!

'The greatest fear is fear itself'
Mine are
-Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
-Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.

Random ones i found
-Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women.
-Chionophobia- Fear of snow
-Chorophobia- Fear of dancing.
-Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school.
-Eurotophobia- Fear of female genitalia.
-Genophobia- Fear of sex.
-Genuphobia- Fear of knees.
-Hedonophobia- Fear of feeling pleasure.
-Laliophobia or Lalophobia- Fear of speaking.
-Optophobia- Fear of opening one's eyes
-Phallophobia- Fear of a penis, esp erect
-Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love.
-Pluviophobia- Fear of rain or of being rained on.
-Pogonophobia- Fear of beards
-Russophobia- Fear of Russians.
-Syngenesophobia- Fear of relatives.

He shud be careful where he sticks that thing, WHATS THE WORSE THAT CUD HAPPEN??!!!

Think of the good nd the bad. hehehehee.
OUTLETS xD
i haz a baby tiger wiv jamie, his name is tigger edwick :D im his mummy....
Nikki lyks my buns.
Keep busy busy busy
HYPEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRR
I LOVE HIMM???!!!!
yes!!!!

now i finally love someone who will appreciate it :D

i see cameron from where i sit :D it is possible to sit in chairs

from now on most of my blogs are probably gna be cheerful, because generally, i am pretty shizzable! today was good, Nikki came rd, just as i had gotten out of bath, which was stupid cos then i culdnt run around in underwear :D LOL then we messed around nd took pics, then Cameron turned up nd he made us jizz... Then Dan. Then Will. THen we just have crazy times. tho Dan nd Will cheated. WHich was extremely upsetting to poor Cameron, who actually won.

Easter, though technically bout a while after.... :D

Woke up, ate yogurt.
Went to All Saints church in town. We were a lil bit late, so stood in doorway while choir went past. Got hit my some dude swinging the incense, incense is the metal thing being swung rd with smoke coming from it. Also, got funny looks from choir ppls.
After church i had a mcdonalds, happy meal ofc, oooh hamburger nd got a dragon thing toy (from how to train ur dragon film) they got the milkshakes mixed up, but i accepted it and moved on.
Then we went for a walk, went into a pub which was open. Played snooker, though health and safety meant that only over 18s could play, yes, i played, i got away wiv being 18 :D yay! Brother shouted bout pineapples.
Went to my nans. When she found out we had mcdonalds, she got kinda upset and sed she wanted a mcdonalds. so we drove back into town to get her some. i had to walk thro this creepy alleyway *shudders* then i got fucking chewing gum on my shoe, so annoying.
then went back to nans, went for a walk then ate lots of choclate. sang 'gives you hell' to my mum. they played cards, whilst i listened to my ipod, started miming nd going crazy to back in black. mum look scared. they all did. we watched a program with a man called johnathon who had curly hair nd they was summat bout a creek, then they stuck swords into this lady, but she didnt mind.
basically all i've eaten today is cake and chocolate.
got home finally, bout half nd hour ago, then got to hav some cookie dough, guess how i warmed the spoon up, only nikki will understand.... ;)
now im off to bed :)
with happy feeling after a comment convo on fb bout me, which made me feel special. 'nuff said.
have to say, after listening to my uncle say it all day.
MOTHERFUCKERS.
aaahhh... much better.
HAPPY EASTER!!! :D

waiting.

4 months, that's all. and all i have to do is kep myself in one piece. can't be that hard...

Light.

maybe there is hope, another option. it just wasnt obivious. i think i know what i need. and im willing to wait for it. i wud lyk to think of it as light at the end of a very long dark tunnel.

I'll take the blame, i am my own enemy.

Strip me raw and take my feelings, take everything i've got. I have no need for these emotions which just cause me pain and hurt....Useless...

Sounds good to be a soldier. One that has no use for emotion, is focused, secure.

The past will come back to haunt you, and it will hurt. It's so easy to hurt a human, they are so vunerable and emotional. The complexity.

What use are instincts when they bring you closer to the painful, now unavoidable truth. The truth hurts, but thats life.

The gaping hole in my chest, it is a battle wound. From a war, the war between me nd myself. A war i dont suppose i can win, nor lose.

Feel like im losing myself, my hold on reality. I'm being pulled away, and no-one is pulling me back.

I am not sure what i am talking about.

I'm just saying,
prepare for the worse.

FAMOUS LAST WORDS, my new song to inspire me.

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Ask me no questions and i will tell you no lies.

Look, if you're reading this, i want to tell you, in all seriousness, that one of the most important things in life are your friends. I cannot stress the importance. There are people you need, and people who need you. But know who your friends are, because sometimes people aren't who you think they are, they change, or are extremely two-faced. Thats a warning. But sometimes, those suspicions you ignored, because you thought them preposterous, are more true than you could ever imagine

I am finally going to stand up for myself, i am trying of being a pushover. And where do you start, at the very beginning...... (a very good place to start)

Sex with Nikki....

Sorry to disappoint, but the blog title has nothing to do wiv my actual blog. Though i will mention that Nikki is rather sexy nd i do think about her in the shower.

Will, my apologies... only just read your blog from yesterday... lets not count today? though we cant help getting turned on by the peas. Im sorry, well not that sorry, u av a marvelous arse.

TODAY WAS BRILL. MEGALY SO :D sexual times with Nikki, Cameron, Flo-monster, Will nd Dan. caravan... alleyways...sex everywhere.... cameron was mostly always involved. FUCK ME IM A CELEBRITY, suck me what u waiting for? :P it was just megaly awesome, cant really explain, only 5 others understand... xD

Lets explain my current situation, Nikki is nuzzling me, trying to stick her face into random places,nd saying her lisp is 'sexy' she giggles as she reads this... OOH CARAMEL...

that is all. go amuse yourself some other way, go masturbate over turtles.