‘Close your eyes, the rain won’t wash away.’

The dangers of lamp-posts, a dedication.
1. They are very tall, and tall things are dangerous, like trees and skyscrapers.
2. They have been pissed on by god-knows-what (dinosaurs?!) which makes them good for bacteria and germs, but bad for you.
3. If they don’t work at night you can’t see where you are going, and that in itself is bad.
4. If you walk into it, either blind, drunk, or just plain stupid, it will hurt.
5. It is well known that lamp-posts are extremely evil and are plotting world domination, as are beavers and Simon Cowell (those two are working together, against the owls)- for all those Weebl fans (you tube it)

Don’t have regrets, they are pointless, you can’t change what happened yesterday or earlier, or the days before now. You might as well move on, and learn from your mistakes. Because what other choice do you have? Except to not learn from mistakes, and then keep on making them.

Emotional pain turns physical when bad, and also in a good way too, kind of. If you miss someone so badly, it feels like you’ve got a giant hole punch in your chest, which only they can fill. The irony is, that when you need someone the most, they are never there.

Sometimes you don’t know what to believe, people can say things to make you feel better, I.e. they lie. Have you noticed how good humans are at lying? How two-faced they can be, humans are complex, both good ways and bad.

Love. When you’re not with the person, you think about them. And when you are with them, you look at them and can’t believe how lucky you are.
I used to know that, now I only partly do, it’s crazy, how you think you know someone, and in the end you don’t. Though when I say the end, I cannot mean it, because, it is not the end, as much as I, and other people I know, have been through, this is just the beginning, the start. Because on the grand scale of things, 15 years (give or take) isn’t a long time at all. Tiny. Like the Shakespeare quote ‘All the world’s a stage, and the men and women merely players’.

I’m pretty much an easy target I suppose at the moment, Emotionally fragile, and slowly fixing oneself. I need to be stronger. I wonder what would what happen if people fought for others, I wouldn’t know because people never do in real life, only in great love stories. Which are just fiction. Just like happy endings, because you think you’ve got one, then something happens and it all gets messed up. Unlike in books, because those stories don’t go on once you have closed it at the end. I can refer to the Twilight quote ‘I love happy endings, they are so rare’.

“I’ve always been afraid of losing love I guess I’ve lost, well if that’s love it comes at much too high a cost!”
It’s amazing how you can relate to songs lyrics.

I love Top Gun ‘Take me to bed or leave me forever’ STUD ;)

I was walking along yesterday, feeling kind of badass, thinking, life ain’t hard, so why am I making it so? Thinking that I can handle anything, full of ‘bravado’, swaggering along. It must have been the combination of me looking quite awesome at the time and the blaring of MCR in my ears, funny how nothing ever lasts…. The looks and the badassness…..

If you had told me a year ago, what was going to happen and how I felt now, I wouldn’t believe you. You see, it only takes a year basically, to lose your innocent and faith in life and become pessimistic. I wouldn’t know myself now, a year ago, I would laugh.

Yano what, why do I have to belong to a group, or a genre or something?! Can I just be me? I mean, I’m not that bad. Am I?

Look who’s procrastinating and being illogical again……